Down day

Having kind of a down day. It's weird because I made nachos last night. I love nachos! But I think all the salt and fat that are in the cheese and chips made me feel really down today. I know when I eat a ton of fruit and veggies, low fat dairy and meat, and whole wheat products, I have tons of energy and feel great about myself. This morning, I looked in the mirror and felt awful. Bad haircut, need to lose weight, etc., etc., etc. I've been loading up on good stuff today, but the pull of wanting junk is hard to resist. When I eat junky, I crave junky. Hopefully today will get better. Missing my husband adds to all the down feelings. I know he really wants to come home. I want him to come home so I can get some peace and quiet. On the upside, my mom got me this great book on making purses. So hopefully the creative outlet will boost my spirits a little bit. Sometimes I wonder if doing nutrition was the right field. I love to create. If I was independently wealthy, I would have gotten some sort of an Arts degree. But I also realize I need to finish what I have started. I have never finished anything that I have started (this is my fourth college). I only have a year and a half left, but sometimes that seems so far away.

The great outdoors

After my awful weekend with the trip to the emergency room, I worked out a schedule with my mom so I could exercise every day. I know how all the workout magazines and other people say how good exercise is for stress and your health, but I'm always amazed at how awesome I feel afterward. Plus the weather has finally broken and I can walk without getting super overheated. It's nice to get out and have that positive attitude feeling when I am done. Of course I wish I could just come home and relax after the walk, but supper and children beckon. While I walk, I think about how badly I want to plant a garden when I finally have a house. Now, I have what I call a "black" thumb. My husband has a bright green thumb. I kill anything I try to nurture in the garden. He can bring it back. So I know I have a lot to learn. I have these wonderful visions of planting this huge garden that will provide fruits and vegetables for my family, my cousin's family, my mom, and my aunt and uncle. I even read about this one woman who has such a great garden she gives fresh produce to the food pantry. How cool is that? I bought some cucumber at the grocery store a couple of weeks ago. Granted, they last forever, but that gummy stuff on the outside is disgusting. I can't wait to walk outside and get a fresh cucumber whenever I want. Well, I hope you have enjoyed reading! Thanks!

Stress

I guess the stress has finally gotten to me. My kids and I were supposed to go camping this weekend. I went and bought a tent and some sleeping bags, hot dogs, marshmallows, etc. We got to the campground and set up with the other people who were camping. My stomach had been hurting before we got there, but I thought maybe it was the heat. As the night progressed, the pain got worse. We ended up having to leave around 2000. I dropped my kids off at my mom's and went to the emergency room. I had blood drawn, peed in a cup, a chest xray, and a ct scan of my abdomen. Of course, they couldn't find anything. So the doctor said she thinks it is an ulcer. An ulcer! At 31! Sigh.... So I have been taking medication and it's getting better. I thought I was handling everything fine, but my body is telling me different. As I'm writing this, I have not had any pain since lunch (it's 2145 here). So I'm hoping it was just bacterial and the meds are clearing it up. The worst part is my kids were so excited all week about going and then I had to take them home. I feel awful. So I am going to think of something to make it up to them. And I am going to make exercise (stress relief) a top priority. That seems to be the only way to calm myself down. Four more months until the hubby comes home. I can't wait! Thanks for reading!

Grocery gripes

The heat has got me thinking. Why do I exercise? I just sweat all day. Why do I wear my invisalign retainers at night? They taste even worse after sleeping through the heat with them in my mouth. Why do I bother putting clothes on the kids? They prefer running around in their underwear anyway. Why do I cook anything? It gets so darn hot in the kitchen we end up eating in the living room in front of the TV. Sigh. Just had to get that off my chest. I drove about thirty minutes to the neighboring town for groceries. We have a grocery store here, but the charge outrageous prices for the fruit, veggies, bread, and meat. It's ridiculous. Why on earth would you charge so much money for food in a town with only one grocery store? I don't get it. The town is full of farmers and factory workers. My favorite topic to go on and on about is nutrition. I get so riled up when I have to pay $6 for a small thing of grapes. Then I think about people who can't afford to grocery shop as well as I can. Six dollars can buy a lot of cheap, fatty meat and hamburger helper. Or buy a whole ton of food at the McDonald's down the street. How on earth are we supposed to end the obesity epidemic when nutritious food is close to impossible to buy? I have realized that the gas I use to drive 30 minutes to the grocery store and 30 minutes back is worth it when it saves me a couple hundred dollars a month on groceries. Such a sad state of affairs.

Well, I'm a little nervous about the first blog. It is weird to me that people are going to follow what I am saying. I guess I'll start with what's going on in my little world. My husband is deployed right now. Thank goodness he is only doing a six or seven month deployment since he is in the Navy. I have mad respect for people who have gone through an Army deployment. He called tonight as I was getting ready to do the dishes. My son was awesome and ate his supper and (of course) his dessert. My daughter, on the other hand, refused to eat. Then she threw a huge fit because we got tired of waiting for her and decided everyone else was going to eat dessert. So my husband (Sven) calls while she is screaming her head off in the background. I think I had just thrown out her food, so you can imagine the racket. I asked her if she would like to talk to him, and she told me no not once, but three times. So I was going to give the phone to my son and she fell on the floor screaming once more. When she finally got on the phone, she was sobbing and kept telling Sven how much she missed him. I can't imagine how awful that makes him feel. I tried to tell him she is just testing me. We went through the same thing with our son. I am so happy they are almost half way done with their cruise. I really don't have too exciting of a life. I'm sure if I did I would be complaining, too. I can't wait to read everyone's blogs to see what they are saying! Thanks for reading!